How do I stop letting messy 3D circumstances pull me out of my chosen assumption about my SP without suppressing my desire or making manifestation a full time job?

I have been practising LOA for over a year and genuinely want a committed relationship with my SP. However, my current 3D circumstances feel very messy. My SP is married and has a child, and I believe his wife may be pregnant with their second child. Seeing these circumstances makes me doubt my power and question whether I am doing something wrong.

There has also been a pattern of ghosting and silence, followed by occasional booty calls when it is convenient for him, and then more silence. I genuinely love my SP and want a committed relationship with him, but seeing the current circumstances makes me constantly analyse, monitor the 3D and question what I am doing wrong.

I want to know how I can stop treating the 3D as the authority while still allowing myself to have my desire, without suppressing it or turning manifestation into a full time job.